f. my damn post got deleted and i dont know why. damn.

anyway watched transformers. i love bumble bee! haha.





was thinking what i'm living for. what? why? how?
for a future? which i dont think this course have given me any.
for the present? which i dont think it's pretty good at the present just that i met some nice people.
for the past? which i dont think there's much to say about.


life was messed up since sec two. been trying hard to keep my life back. but nothing does the job. cause there was this stupid ah lian who kept pestering me. spoiling my life. spoiling my relationships with the others. spoiling my reputation.

then not before long, i screw up my o levels. after o's, i met a jerk. he suck. not surprisingly he hurled so much #$%^&* at me over my junior. okay, it was over. should have condemned him at the beginning. hurhur.

got my results. got a good luck wish from him. got into NYP and into this stupid course called business informatics. haha. but on the first day of orientation, i met someone special. he gave me a sticker. which was kinda stupid cause it's simply useless. make me lost with a course mate called steven. someone took us to our class. met someone called fiona. =) left after awhile.

2nd day. had some lecture. and he came into my sight again. i wore a wrong coloured shirt and became super AA. orange, i still remember. haha. he came over and sorta introduced himself. my god. 老套！haha. got to really know him after getting his number from my OGL. which i stupidly fell for his trap. which isn't a very good thing. haha.

had a date. and we got together quite quickly i supposed. thought it would start fast and ended even faster. but it did not. which was the best thing~ =)

soon later, one small furry creature joined our family. mochi! my sis's bday gift from a friend of hers. she brought along 4 new lives. rips didnt manage to survive. flip was gone after being sick. such tormenting time to see him go. he was my favourite. the only one who would let us hug and carry and then he will urine on us if he got scared. haha. and he loves the pink pillow.

then came some clique conflicts which i never understand and never knew how to solve it. but life was still okay till some changed. never knew what can cause drastic change in a person. never understand someone completely. never trust someone even after knowing them for a long time. never.

but never say never.

till i met mr tan, ms huang, mr paglar and of cause that monster other than my family. i learned to trust. trust is such a mutual thing. and i gradually learn that to be able to have a trusty relationship, it's sort of, you need to gain their trust. you need to open up first/more. when you open up, they too will open up. and the trust relationship will be established. unless they dont plan to open up in the first place lah. it's hard to maintain a friendship when there's no trust, isn't it?

but then, there's such things as drifting apart. like with fiona, with jessie, wani, ziqi, ifah, kaiying and all. cause our timetables just clash. we just cant find a perfect timing, we just cant meet up. and it sucks completely. cause of projects. cause of bad choices of grouping. hate it. hate everything.

until your world collapse, stay strong. i wish i could.

i miss my mommy. i miss flip. =(